I did it.  I made the decision to quit my job and stay home with Leanne full time.  This is probably one of the hardest decisons I’ve ever made, but one I am sure I’ll never regret.

I knew pretty much my whole life that all I wanted to do was have kids and stay home with them.  That’s what my mom did and because of it I have some of the best memories of my own childhood.  I wanted this same sense of happiness and security for my family that I had growing up.  I was never really career focused, but good enough at my job that my career just kind of fell into place.  I’ve never had ambitions of being a CFO or CEO.  After I had Leanne I took six months off work with the intention of returning two days a week.  We found a great nanny and things pretty much just fell into place.  I loved my job, but I always had this dark cloud hanging over my head related to it.  Maybe I set too high of expectations for myself as a mother, but I felt that work was not allowing me to give Leanne 100% of the attention that she needed or that I wanted to give to her.  My work days were long days - I’d leave by 6am and not return home until around 5:30.  By then I was exhausted.  I felt like I spent the days I wasn’t working running around between play dates, chores, errands etc.  I never really felt relaxed and truly happy with either aspect of my life.

Did I make the right decision? I don’t know. Do I feel at peace with my decison? Not 100%, but I followed my heart.  One thing I do know for certain is that I won’t be 99, looking back over my life and memories of Leanne and any other children we may have wishing that I’d have worked those two days a week.